JESSIE J burst into tears on stage after revealing that she had suffered a devastating miscarriage.
The pop star appeared hours after revealing she was “overwhelmed with sadness” after losing a baby that she “decided to have on her own”.
During the gig at the Hotel Cafe in Los Angeles, Jessie said, “I decided to have a baby on my own and miraculously it worked for a while and yesterday it sucked.”
“This year was without a doubt the toughest year I have ever had to go through.
“I lost my hearing last December and was diagnosed with Menieres. Then I lost my voice, which was fucking awful. Then I lost my baby. I know I will be fine because like that there really is nothing else to choose in the way I live.
“I’ve never felt so alone as I did last week.”
The 33-year-old heartbroken star shared a photo of herself with a positive pregnancy test and an emotional quote on her Instagram page tonight.
In the long caption, she valiantly explained how nervous she’d been about keeping her pregnancy a secret during a concert in Los Angeles tonight.
Tragically, just hours later, the doctors told her they couldn’t find her baby’s heartbeat.
The singer wrote: “Yesterday morning I laughed with a friend who said, ‘Seriously, how am I supposed to get through my gig in LA tomorrow night without telling the whole audience that I’m pregnant’.
“Yesterday afternoon I was scared of the thought of making it through the gig without collapsing… After going for my third scan and being told there was no heartbeat
“This morning. I feel like I have no control over my emotions. I might regret posting this. Maybe not. I don’t really know. What I know is that I want to sing tonight. Not because I’m avoiding the grief or the trial, but because I know that singing will help me tonight. “
Jessie went on to explain why she wanted to continue the concert, adding, “I’ve done two shows in two years and my soul needs it. Even more today. I know some people think they should just cancel. But at this moment I have clarity on one thing: I started singing at a young age out of joy, to fill my soul and self-love therapy, that has never changed and I have to deal with it in my own way.
“I want to be honest and true and not hide what I feel. I deserve that. I want to be myself in this moment as I can be. Not just for the audience, but for me and my little baby who made it, I know myself and I know I would talk about it on stage because that’s how I am. So instead of a tearful emotional speech trying to explain my energy. That feels safer. “
The star who confirmed her breakup with boyfriend Max Last month, and previously dating Channing Tatum, added, “I made a decision to have a baby by myself. Because it’s everything I ever wanted and life is short. Getting pregnant was a miracle in itself and an experience I will never forget and I know I will have it again.
I’m still in shock, the sadness is overwhelming. But I know that I am strong and I know that I will be fine.
“I’m still in shock, the sadness is overwhelming. But I know that I am strong and I know that I will be fine. I also know that millions of women all over the world have felt this pain and much worse. I feel connected to those of you I know and those of you I don’t
“It’s the loneliest feeling in the world. So I’ll see you in LA tonight I may be joking less, but my heart will be in the room. “
The star was inundated with messages from her followers who sent messages of support in the comments, including Pixie Lott who wrote, “I’m so sorry Jessie sent so much love ❤️❤️❤️❤️”